im really tired. havent got the energy to do anything at all.
and sometimes i feel so angry with myself that i feel like giving up.
feed my lecture notes to pixie, burn them, use them to wipe my ass
or something. missed out on too much already. the whole of last week's
chem lectures plus bio and maths lectures. however am i going to catch
up. even if i do, how long is it going to freaking take. feel useless at times,
not being able to understand those concepts in the lectures notes though
i made an effort to try to read them up on my own. however am i going
to damn it catch up. really wish all these will end soon. so that i will
be able to catch up on both studies and sleep. i am tired.
alright, enough ranting. i will be able to do it.
i am going to freaking do it. dont want to regret on the day i get back
those darn results. hang on and stay tough. this goes out to
all you people out there too. hang on. its going to be in 3weeks' time.
meanwhile, stay strong.
braces in 2more days. hope i will still be able to eat as per normal.
will die if i cant. and im icing my face now, cause it is ruddy pain because
of some hard pass that went the wrong direction. i am so freaking sure that
the ball is supposed to go down the sideboards and not right smack into
my face. thanks to that blow, my wounds from the extraction is
bloody bleeding again.
有时候，我真的很希望这一切都不会有所改变。
你对我所说过的每一句话，为我所做过的每一件事。
我打从心底谢谢你对我的好。但请你不要对我太好。
我害怕，害怕我不能适应，不能调整心情。
我不甘心。