doubt i can hang in there for long.
fucked up piece of shit. yeah sure, give up when you find it
difficult to move on. press the pause or esc button.
call for time-out. but well, thats not possible for me aye.
i cant and i dont want to. feeling all lost again. losing
it. where is that drive? that passion? lost it. probably just
not used to it. been at least half a year and im still trying
to get used to the fact that its not just you.
trying to convince myself that its not important. and that its
stupid of me to think that way. self denial, thats what you call
it. but i know i care. no matter how i try to hide it, at the end
of the day, i cant get past myself. laughing it off when you feel like
trash, you think that feels good? cant help it with insensitive
idiots around, can you? so what do you reckon? i shut myself up
and im said to be emo. i should just shut myself up and block out
whatever others say.
'you two are not close arent you?'
i was shocked when i heard that coming from my mum.
nobody knows but yet my mum does. i guess now i really do
have an idea already. used to think that you would do that to
anyone else but not me. now i think im naive.
losing it, losing everything.