overwhelmed.
dont understand.
heavy workload.
struggling.
trying.
not working.
not helping.
not asking.
dont know what to ask.
dont know where to start.
stuck.
not here nor there.
cant breathe.
losing it.
collapsing.
one last breath.
KO, you're down.
dont mind me. please dont be offended if i say something
stupid to any one of you out there. thats what i do when im
single thing i see. an attempt to laugh things away. childish,
i know. but what else can i do. start emo-ing and draw circles
in the corner. well, i might do that at home. but definitely not in
school. and that brings me to what i feel like saying today.
hmm, someone said that its difficult to tell if im feeling sad. or at
least, something along that line. i mean, isnt that good? its not good
to bottle up your feelings. yar i agree. whenever im unhappy,
i give chao bin. whenever i get pissed off, words just come out of
my mouth. naturally. not the usual kind of words. but yar. words.
its quite easy to know how im feeling. when you are my good friend.
i show everything on my face, and im serious. of course, thats when
you know me for quite some time and im close to you and all.
i wont hesitate to throw my temper at you. but that only happened
a few times. most of the times, i wont do that. i'll probably shut myself
up and give a super black face.
right, shall talk about this some other time.
on a lighter note, i think i have found my motivation. there must be a
reason as to why im here. and not in some other JCs. maybe i can better
focus here. but still, i know i have the potential. and im going to stretch it
fully. show them what i've got. show them that i can do as well here.
i am going to freaking study and get good results.
go scream! i know you can do it. motivation is the best remedy for
slackiness. or whatever you want that to be known as.
i shall start with the root of this evil - biology.