i've been freaking weird these days. cant stand myself
sometimes. dont know what im doing or thinking. dont exactly feel
like talking to people around me. and its partly cause my throat
is sore. pain. and yet im still munching junk food.
thats not the point. the point is that. oh fug, there are just times
when i really dont feel like talking. so please, if you see my chao bin,
just ignore me. dont be offended alright. i may be a joke at times, but
there are also times when im serious and dont feel like joking at all.
so bear with it. it'll be over soon. or if you dare to, you can still talk to me.
and it depends on whether i want to be nice. if im guilty, i'll probably reply
you and tell you that im tired or something. but it depends on who's the
person at times. there are just people whom you cant bear to ask to shut up.
and nowadays, i always feel pissed. be it at myself or at others. easily pissed,
i should say. sounds like signs that tells me that my bloody friend is coming?
no she's not. its just my usual get-cranky-once-in-a-while-and-you'll-be-okie
mood. it will be over soon. it's just me. get used to it.
a division will be over really soon.
once its over, its really over.
mixed feelings.
i told you. it'll be a total flop.
yet you just shrugged it off. i dont understand, really.
why didnt you take it seriously. what seems unimportant to
you may be the opposite for others. please be more sensitive
wont you? i've always thought you were the responsible kind of
person. but recently, things that happen are starting to make
me feel that i have made a wrong judgement.
im really tired now. talk more later.