like the weather nowadays,
i feel gloomy at times, really.
its been sunny today.
real sunny. and i hope it'll rain tmr.
dun feel lik running all of a sudden.
i run too much. run away from practically
E V E R Y T H I N G.
back to school again.
and yes i saw saw saw.
brightened my day quite abit.
but well. cant help feeling sad sometimes.
its a battle. against loneliness. against myself.
seeing everyone in pairs. no we're not
talking about that kinda pairs
and im perfectly straight so yar.
continuing with wad i said. yet, im lik
a hyper electron. a lone one. floating about.
trying to find some kind orbital where i can
jus stay there.
sometimes, when i try to talk. its
lik im breaking up some pair. feels lik shit totally.
and yes, i get it. u dun want me around.
thought this feeling would no longer surface.
thought it'll be better when i came to mj. at least..
but apparently, its etched here. u see that thing
beating in me? yar, it hurts. maybe u can say im
xiao ti da zuo-ing but. im the
sort of weirdo who needs A friend. 1
whom i can stick to. not literally stick to.
im not sticky anw. at least someone to pei
me go here and there. someone i can talk to.
someone whos equally concerened bout me.
it feels lik #$%^ when it feels as though
u are the one maintaining this and yet the other
party cant be bothered.
but now lik cant find anyone.
quite pathetic. canteen. today. saddening.
its jus cause its me rite.
if it was her. or her. this wouldnt
have happened rite. jus fking
tell me in the face so i wouldnt hold on
to it lik some freaking idiot.
i feel stupid and yet thats the thing
that keeps me going.
somehow.
i feel abandoned.
i miss my friends.
i miss donk.
i miss juan.
(though i jus saw u two today)
i miss jasminetan.
(man, i really miss seeing u in school)
i miss limhengtoot.
(feels weird to not hear u say lame stuff.
mus listen to u talk once in a while lol)
i miss noobtoh.
(boy oh boy, redface! zihigh kia i wanna
be siao with u lol)
i miss fookaikai.
(why din i see u in sch today!)
i miss kawai.
(hoho smart ass wanna see ur gongong face hah)
i miss chenyu.
(hoho dude, i wanna laugh at ur uniform again)
i miss weitian.
(gosh, for the first time.)
i really miss these ppl man.
独行侠
风光的背后
不为人知的寂寞
难以捉摸的心情
她也快不认识这个在镜子里的人了