the thought of having to try to fit in,
having to make new friends, having to worry
bout this and that. its back here. again.
i thought i'll never haf to face it again.
at least not until i make my way to
the uni. i was too confident, wasnt i?
or maybe not. i wasnt. my frens were the
ones who were too confident.
dun worry too much lah. u confirm can get in de lo.
aiya, let the 10pointers worry lah. u confirm can wan.
u can de lah, if not use floorball lo.
the truth slaps me back into the real world.
the truth is that U DIN GET IN! DUN THINK THAT
THEY CANT DO WITHOUT U.
i've been pondering alot these few days.
why am i so bothered over this?
why do i wanna go back there?
isit because of my frens? yar i guess so. mainly because
i've oredi been so used to seeing the AH ppl gathering
in front of the malay stall every morning, so used to saying
i wanna pon floorball every mon, so used to going to the
library to rot every break and so used to seeing him every mon.
yes im used to it. it was so close to being a habit.
and now. this habit cant be formed. premature death, u can call
it. besides the habit, i admit that vj definitely has a better
reputation than mj. not that im trying to put mj down but,
its true, isnt it? everyone noes. yar. im bitter. bitter over the
fact that im not able to get into the top 5 JCs. or maybe not able to
but jus that im kicked out of the 3rd one and i dun wanna
go to the 5th one. so its my fault. my own fault.
im not reli unhappy that im posted to mj.
its jus that i dun undersatnd why things din turn out the way i
wanted it to. and i feel sorry. maybe its my fault.
i hear ppl question why single digits scorers go to mj.
they say they are the ppl responsible for kicking ppl
out of mj to tpjc. yar im sorry. but my second choice is mj.
FYI, i was oso kicked out by some school and do u reli think
i will feel any better than u?
yar i noe i sound damn guailan and sore. or wadeva u call that.
jus lemme be guailan before i finally don the mj uniform alrite.
let me be angry and guailan. after that, i promise.
i promise that this anger and guailan-ness will be converted and
channeled to complete my next target. quoted from chenyu,
yes, i will score holy A levels result. i shall work hard.
born of a vision to be the best
rising above the rest
we speak with one clear voice
yes this is our choice
meridian yes we will be
THE BEST
at least i noe how to sing the mj sch song.
new CG tmr...
*crossed