hate life here. cant help it though.
man i reli tink im going mad.
replaced yea. while on the way home today,
looked at my phone's gallery.
saw a ruddy lot of photos.
din noe why i had lik over 80 photos
in my 'Images' folder (those that are unedited
and not yet saved in com) not including the other at least
100mb worth of photos in my other folders.
yar. looked thru them and found most of them belonging
t the class category. was sorta tempted t blog at the class
blog at that moment. thought that i'll jus go home and blog
there. but well. no i shant. im not the only one who noes
how t blog there and who noes the pass and userid.
im not the only one who noes how t scan the damn thing in.
im not the only one. yea. u may think im weird.
yar i tink so too. im making myself feel miserable by
not doing that. why? i dun tink anyone will understand..
i dunno how t explain either. have you been weird till an
extent that u jus feel lik giving up on sth that u always thought
you'd hold on till the end? i told myself not t look. i want t try to
be in their shoes. i dun wanna care. dun bother urself with all that.
yar. thats wad i did. and i thought it turned out well.
but i dunno why it feels as if my heart is aching.
for some reason. different ppl different treatment bahs.
feels that im outta that situation somehow.
always felt that i dun fit in everywhere. dunno why.
always acted as if i din care. but i reli do. i've tried. but i failed.
i will always feel that im outta place.
dunno whether its because they dislike me but...
i jus dun seem to be able t get it.
喘不过气。
在这里，我永远觉得很辛苦。
我很想逃。 但没人肯支持我。
没人肯理我。 我快被逼疯了。
快支撑不住。
快窒息了。