ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
ups and downs
can drive u crazy cant they?
i hate this. sometimes they are okie, at other
times they drive me mad. i feel as if im gonna lose it
anytime. thats not wad u get when u are 16. at 16, u are
supposed t be happy. enjoying family life, enjoying wadever
that u are doing cause u dun haf to work.
but thats not wad im doing! im experiencing hell now.
its a facade! a blardy facade that bluff ppl into believing
that this is a place that is fit for human to live in.
the emotional denial, all the rubbish that u face is not
at all shown. i mean how do u freaking show it. its not
jus me i noe. they are experiencing it too. but at the freaking
least, they can vent it out on me. i cant. im not supposed t.
sure, i see them crying over this. i see him crying over this.
course it feels weird t see someone older crying badly.
i feel bad. but it is always lik that! u cry and go back t the
same old pattern the next day. whats the freaking use.
sometimes i reli do treasure that half a day whereby everyone
is reli happy. from the bottom of our hearts.
but good things often last for only a short while.
我很辛苦
我真得很辛苦