and deprived. zzz. why do they have to
guan me until lidat. its so freaking irritating.
i dunno wad t do. i reli dun wanna make them
angry. but at times i reli dunno and cant control
myself. and thus i say things t hurt them. those
who noe me shd noe that i can very well say very
evil stuff when im hurt or angry.
wad did i do? its jus that sometimes
the way u phrase ur words and sentences make
me feel hurt and they make me feel angry..
i dunno. wad are u all trying t do? u all sound lik u dun
wan me. i understand. if u all dun wan me. i can jolly
well help u all by not appearing in front of u all.
but u find problem wif that too.
sometimes i reli wanna solve this.
but u wouldnt let me. i dunno wad t do.
wadeva i do will be deemed wrong by u all.
why?
i use t be angry. and hate resides in me.
for a period of time. i learnt t control myself.
and tell myself t live wif it. try t bear wif it.
be nice t u all. dun make u all angry.
bt that din last. it came back again.
u all told me that u wanted t change too.
but why cant u all do it too?
im not trying t push the blame onto anybody.
but its jus that. i DUNNO.
I FEEL UNWANTED.
it feels real terrible when u noe
that nth is going smoothly. this is no longer
a place that i can turn t.
it is jus a noun that holds no special meaning
t me. it jus feels weird and crappy t be in
a place where u are the odd one out.
can we go back?
i love you.
Father And Mother I Love You
its jus that we dunno how t express it.