its blardy scary when u tot u are prepared
and yet u arent at all.
it was reli damn traumatising when i got
to the backstage and realise that my mask wasnt there.
trust me. it scared the shit outta me.
jus that my tears got me first. the first thing i did was
to break down and cry. i cried on the stage itself as i saw that
no one was in the place where i was spose to be. it
was fking terrible. the feeling of not being there when u
are needed. i dun blame anyone. maybe i did at first.
but after that as i tot about it. i realised that maybe i shudda
double-checked wif the daoju ppl again before
actually acting and going on stage. the feeling of not being able
to do anything but stare and cry is fking horrendous.
i noe that ppl dun blame me. at least some dun. but i feel it.
i mean im the one who din go out. wif eloise? yar. i feel it.
im the one on stage. imagine if u were in my shoes. u would feel guilty
wun u? well i do. i mean. i practised so much jus for this.
and yet this had to happen on this fateful day. i cant help but
feel screwed up. crying uncontrollably din help but. i cant reli help it.
im sorry ppl. sorry. that it had to turn out lidat.
thx to the ppl who comforted me. jasmine tan.kai.trudy.juan.edwen.jiaxiang.
shangbo.haonan.chenyu.sheryl.evonne. etcetc. i dunno. thx.
hopefully the judges dun realise it.
waiting is a very horrible process.
but what we can do now is only
to wait patiently for the results.
-quanmingyundong