what the hell.
i reli dunno wad u all are up to.
its lik. okieokie. everything that happened
is my fault. ENTIRELY my fault.
i am the destroyer. i destroy and rid peace.
my existence is spoiling everything.
i dunno why my existence will jus make u angry.
lik wad u haf said. u oso dunno why but once u see me
ur temper jus sorta go haywire.
u noe i tried. i tried to be nice. and all.
but i jus dun understand why u dislike me so much.
why u hafta throw ur temper whenever im arnd.
why u hafta say it in my face that i destroyed the peace.
u noe wad this leads to? me trying to run away.
break free from all this. stay out of ur way.
avoid u. act lik an idiot who dunno how to speak in front of u.
try not to make myself unhappy by having to dislike
staying here. try to make myself think the optimistic way
by working real hard and studying hard to live life the way i want in the future.
is it jus me or me? i guess i oredi haf the answer.
i am the odd one out. i noticed it too. whenever u all go out.
im always walking alone behind u all. when u all are talking and chatting
im always keeping my mouth shut and trying to look elsewhere.
i tried. when u all seem so happy bout certain stuff. i try to make myself see
things the way u all did. but i failed. no encouragement was given.
instead. discouragement sucessfully made me depressed.
NO IM NOT GONNA LIVE LIFE THAT WAY.
IM GONNA LIVE LIFE THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE.
guess i haf oredi learnt how to survive on my own ...
next step is to get used to it ...
STOP SCREAMING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!