finally went mad ytd. she kept asking me
alot of ques that i din want to ans.
i felt uncomfortable.
lik im forced to one corner...
at that point of time.
i felt as if i was going mad oredi.
my thoughts goin wild.
lik im reli not myself. dunno how to tink
properly. having this urge to run into my
room and lock the door up. and pray that no
one will disturb me and i will jus
spend the rest of my life in my room all
by myself and reli pray that no one will
come and disturb me. i wil be alrite on my own.
she came in. and i jus lost myself in my tears.
crying so uncontrollably in front of her. the
first time i did that. i jus couldnt stop.
i talked. my voice trembling and all.
at a point of time. i felt lik asking her whether i
could jus hug her. but i din. i still thought it was stupid.
when was the last time she hugged me? when
was the last time i hugged her?
i dunno. i dont wanna know.
i dun lik ppl to ask me ques. i dun lik
them to ask me ques that i din noe how to
ans. i dun lik them to ask ques that is totally
irrelevant and which would make me scared.
i jus remembered that i was tired after crying,
wif my eyes all swollen. then i went to sleep.
i want to change.
what is stopping me? what is stopping them?
they always say they are at fault too.
but sadly i dun see them changing as well.
pls lemme jus have the strength to change this all.
dun mind me