the once-guai gal is finally retaliating.
she feels bad about it.
she does feel bad about it.
but whenever she tinks of wad other
ppl did to her.
she becomes rebellious again.
she hates this. its
lik sitting on this roller coaster..
u feel horrible. u feel lik puking. and yet
u fking wanna sit on it because u are oredi on
it. not because u seek the thrill.
horrible situation to be in.
she appears to be strong in front of others
all smiley. she doesnt wanna be different from others.
but sometimes when she gets stressed. she shows it. she
becomes quiet all of a sudden. she doesnt wannna talk.
she stares into the space. i wonder what she is thinking of?
thinking of how to escape? wallowing in self-pity?
she wun tell cause noone can help.
but when she does noe that she needs someone to talk to.
she needs to get it all out. before she goes crazy.
when she's walking on the road alone,
she starts to think real hard. wad did she do?
thinking thinking thinking.
but it doesnt help. she feels sad.
she feels that she's all alone.
she cries. on the road. where nobody is there to
walk together wif her?
she wun cry in front of others cause she tinks its diulian.
but she cries when she's alone. or at night..
when she buries her head in her pillow and cry silently.
trying not to make any sound at all.
but i think this is stupider. she noes it too.
she jus doesnt wanna admit.
wad a pathetic gal.
i hate her