freak.

i tot things would change for the better.
however. it turns out that it
changed for the worse.
wtf. wtf is wrong.
and so. they noe that they scold me the
moment they talk to me.
and yet they still scold me every single
time they see me. wtf.
can i call this. ming zhi gu fan.
YARYARYAR. they dun lik me lah.
must be lidat wan. scold scold scold.
all they noe is to scold me.
im sick of this. im sick of hearing
u scolding me. sick of hearing u nag at me.
why dun u jus let me go.
if it hurts u to be reminded
that u haf
such a horrible ap dotter.
and it jus bothers u that there
is this person who makes u angry the
moment u see her.
u can dun look at me.
u can throw me out.
u can jus treat it as if i dun exist.
i wun mind. i reli wun mind.
as long as i stil get to go to school.
it is so fking contradicting.
i hear ppl say that they are happier at
home than in school. u noe how much i pity
myself when i hear that?
why cant i be lik that too?
why am i lik this? why do i dread going home?

help! no one's here anymore.
mummy im scared.
w.h.y isit that u changed
the key to the house without telling me?
or isit that im too stupid to figure out
how to get in. again. why are
you all inside staring at me as if
u dunno me? dun do that
no one wants to help me.
its lik the dream where im at this
beach wif no one there. and no one even
noes when i've drowned.
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