finally he said it.
'the more i look at u, the more i detest u'
u noe how hurt i was when i heard that?
and u noe wad? he hollered at me in the car.
all the way from my hse. to the skool.
wtf. wad a way to start off this week.
great. and when i reached skool.
i felt lik crying. jus CRY. find some place and
cry. but no. i had no choice but to hold
back all my tears and put on a smile.
and it actually pulled off. no one knew wad was happening.
great. i finally realise that i dun wan to continue this kinda life.
wad am i spose to do to get out of all this?
shd i become a walking zombie?
lik wad they said. void of all feelings, treating
this place lik a hotel. i cant fight back u noe.
i mean either way i'll get scolded. for not talking
and for talking back. so wtf am i spose to do?
i tink i shd become a chameleon. u noe how they change themselves
to suit diff environments? lik when im in skool, im spose to
be happy go lucky, always fooling around lik some clown.
then when im at home, i'll be lik some robot, obeying orders,
listening to them, and TRY to not make them angry?
i tink im a chameleon. thats lik cool. no one ever noes
wad they really are lik. some say they are green in color. some
say they are brown in color. no one noes.
no one tries to find out. no one bothers anw.
quite cool yea. till then.
CHEERs to being a successful chameleon.
go CHARMANDER!