i jus realised this.
the problem lies wif me.
not u not him not him
ME.
if only i could disappear.
if only.
then there wun be so much unhappy stuff happening
yar. u all wud still be happy.
u all wud be smiling happily wif one another.
and i wud probably be
in some other places.
maybe i wun be happy.
maybe i wun be smiling all the time.
but i most probably wun be unhappy.
i most probably wun have to put on a mask all the time.
the mask which acts as and is a neccessity
the mask which at first makes me sorta uncomfortable.
but is now needed.
but still its uncomfortable.
not much choice. no one reli understands me.
no one UNDERSTANDS me.
no one wanna listen to me.
im jus ME. who wud wanna listen to me.
gimme a break. wtf will care about me.
so why not jus lemme go away.
u noe i had this urge to run out ytd.
but in the end i din. of cos.
until this urge gets stronger and STRONGER.
why not sum it up by saying i hate myself.
that shd be able to explain it all.
alrite. go die.
soul rotting in process.