no matter wat. ur family will still be the pillar of strength
no matter how close ur frens are wif u. there will be a point of time when everybody jus lets go.
i understand this.
but its hard for me.
in my case.
u need to understand.
there will be a point of time when i
will let go.
till then...

dear santa,
will u make my christmas wishes come true?

1) i wanna leave this place and go to some place where no one noes me
2) i wan mingdao to leave wif me. although i noe i need not make this wish. cause he will go wherever i go and vice versa.
3) can u let me see him 1 last time before i go.
4) can u lemme haf a drink called the 'only-will-let-u-be-happy' drink.
5) can u teach me to be happy?
6) can u teach me the way to not bluff myself that im happy everyday?
7) if not can u teach me how to not haf any feelings at all. i wld rather choose this. so as to not make myself and others suffer.
8) can u teach me how to make ppl proud of me and care for me?

now u can teach me the way to not waste time on things that will not come true