i reli feel as if im in hell.
this is reli unfair.
why am i the only one facing all this?
why dun others get the same treatment.
they dun wan me to be happy.
i haf to cry at nite every single day.
this is unfair.
why do others get doted on while
i get picked on?
can u imagine the moment u get home
u feel as if suddenly everything turns diff.
the atmosphere and all.
suddenly
everything is attacking u at the
same time.
others say that family is wad matters most.
they noe how to care for u and all.
i tried.
but it din work.
why?
why am i so fking pathetic.
that nothing seems to work out for me.
and so i studied.
they said that a kid jus need to noe how to study.
other kids study. i study too.
why do they get rewarded for studying?
and yet i get scolded for studying?
they say all i noe is how to study.
why? other kids get scolded for not getting good results.
my results are not that fantastic but at least they are
presentable. but why do i get scolded for that?
they say i only noe how to get good results.
nothing else. why?
im stupid yar. i din believe that when someone scolded
me that im stupid. but i jus did.
i started to convince myself onto believing that
i mite be stupid afterall.
im going to break down soon.
i jus broke down in front of her.
and she scolded me for crying.
WHY cant i cry??
why cant i even express how i feel?
why dun anyone believe me?
that day u said that u tot i looked lik
i cant wait to leave this place.
yes. u finally guessed it.
i NEED to leave. before i reli go mad.
stop forcing me.
why did things turn so ugly.
i refuse to believe that my life is so damned
screwed. why am i the only one affected?
u cant blame me if i grow up to be lik
that.
u cant blame me.
no. u cant do that.
why am i so fucking screwed.