feel lik staying in a hole now. where no one can find me. no one can make me so freaking unhappy. no one wld need to comfort me. no one wld get snapped at for trying to comfort me and make me happy. OMFG. i hate the world man. not the whole of the world. but almost all.
and i guess the world hates me too. i hate myself too. getting so rebellious that i hate myself as well. reli feel lik isolating myself frm everyone else. if that ever happens, soon i guess, the world wld be a happier place for me and for those arnd me. i feel lik crying every single day. no one noes. ya. everyone has their own problems. i dun expect ppl to help me wif mine? i mean there are ppl who offer help to me. but. i dunno wads wrong wif me. i dun wanna keep accepting help frm others. it makes me feel even sadder. lik i cant control my life. which im not doing now. im so totally not in control. i jus wanna break free. all these problems all these things which i dare not face are killing me. donkey said that using com and not sleeping is bad for my health. yayaya. i hear too much of these. at home. i noe that. but so wad? its not as if i wanna live that long? i figured that i wanna live for a few more yrs. thats enuff for me. why stay on to suffer? u're gonna die sooner or later. how bout sooner? i dun mind. i feel as if im alone. fighting alone in this so very complicated world. ive been thinking alot. why do i wanna stay on in this world? to see the ugliness of all the rubbish? wad am i doing here? why am i here in the first place? i dun even noe why im here and im supposed to face so much stuff. i suppose most at my age wldnt have gone thru alot. i dunno. but. why am i feeling all this kinda stuff. i feel tired. very tired. i feel as if im about to collapse any time. i dun wanna hurt them. a few more steps. thats wad it'll take to collapse to the grnd. wad wld i feel then? relieved? i dun reli noe. but i guess things wldnt get better for me. why isnt there a button named 'backspace' in life? why isnt there the 'ctrl alt dlt' function? this makes life horrible. no one will ever understand. sometimes i feel that life is reli unfair to me. why let all these happen to me? why not some other ppl? why me? WHY IS IT BLARDY HAPPENING TO ME AND JUST ME? no one will ever understand. no one will bother. they're jus as busy wif their lives. freak. i freaking hate all these. im a sucker who jus noes how to complain. i dunno how to solve the prob. i dunno cause im jus a kid and still a kid. wad makes u think that im supposed to be able to face all this when an adult can also cry because of this? im only a kid. stop tearing u kid.