tmd. wad the heck. seriously, this hols is not lik hols at all hao bu hao. all cramped wif CCAs. wtf. getting real fed up. first, its the stupid crap maomaochong. end up having to go to skl every single day. only got sunday left. but wads the fkin use? sunday need to go to my relative's hse. not grandfather jiu shi gramma. got time left for myself la. wad hols? i tink i work harder during hols than normal skooldays. next is founder's day. wad e heck. we so preoccupied wif the stupid caterpilar. surely got time paixi for wad crap founder's day. in the end the last time hanlaoshi came for our lesson, only xiao mao ji zhi came. summore not prepared at all. no wonder she looked so freaking sad lidat. wtf. i see liao oso guilty hao bu hao. rubbish. these two things already make us busy lik shit liao. DO WE LOOK LIK WE STILL HAVE TIME FOR ALL THOSE SPAS HOMEWORK THAT OUR BELOVED TCHERS GAVE? not that i blame the tchers but, i feel freaking stressed now la. walao. not a single piece of hw done. even the book reviews oso not done. u tink i have time to do the heymaths hw and the freaking emath project? walao. jus now was trying to do online wif junru and athena. damn pek. junru kept getting dc and athena had a stomachache. i was jus left there alone, lik a stupid idiot, THE BIGGEST FOOL ON EARTH. sorry. feeling pek now. not blaming u all. but. its not reli nice to jus leave sumone there waiting for u. and i was lik trying desperately to reach u two. rarhs. dots.
now, my dearest mum comes and kp me. she says that i use too much of the comp. BUT WAD THE HELL. im not even using the comp to play, im using it to do proj. come on la. can u try to get ur facts rite before scolding me? i try my best not to make u angry. but everytime, i dunno why, u'll still get angry at me for the most minor stuff. everytime i use the comp, u assume that im using it to play or watch some rubbish videos at youtube. it doesnt mean that after doing my work at heymaths and using the comp to watch aqmfs is not rite right. i mean, I HAVE MY LIFE DUN I? im jus trying to relax. to jus destress myself. u deny my only chance to reli relax and all. its not as if i wan it. its not as if i wan to go to skool everyday. its not my choice that i come back home late cause of CCA and have to use the comp at 10pm. ITS NOT MY CHOICE. why wun u gimme a chance to explain. everytime u look at me wif such an expression, i jus wanna keep my mouth shut. cause i noe that i would jus be courting my death if i dared to say anything. why wun u jus gimme a chance? I HATE MYSELF. EVERY SINGLE THING BOUT ME MYSELF AND I.