dots. these few days, we have been taking back our exam papers and all. dots. dun reli feel that good. in fact, i feel freaking disappointed. jus feel lik crying. some ppl may tink that my results are ok and theirs are worse and if i cry, its jus to show off or sth. BUT IM TELLING U THAT. if i reli cry, its not because of my parents or anything. its jus that, i feel that im letting myself down. i reli did study. i studied damn hard. but its jus that i was too tensed up during the exam that i forgot everything. thats why i got this kinda results. i hate myself. why am i so stupid? others can do it so why cant i? i reli hate this. im especially disappointed about my math and geog results. i reli dun understand why it turned out this way. it is so totally different frm wad i expected. its not that im aiming too high or looking down on those whose results are even worser than mine. its jus that. i reli think that im letting myself down. i understand that, results lead to my future. to me, results sorta is very important to me.
but. i hate it when ppl ask me about my results. especially in this kinda very competitive environment. although everyone seems to not reli care bout their studies, deep in their hearts, they give it a whole damn man. i hate those hypocrites. they tell u not to study and fail wif them. in e end, wad happens is that, they get a1s when u fail by urself. wtf is this?
i reli cant stand it anymore. i noe im giving myself alot of stress. but i cant help it. CCA, studies, they are all gonna drive me mad sooner or later. a few says ago, i was given some advice ya. i almost cried. i realise that im reli ap. i jus wanna be by myself. i dun wan anybody to come near me. no. GET AWAY FROM ME.
im still waiting for u.